| You Have Fantastic Karma |
 You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person.And all your good deeds will pay off – if they haven’t already. But you’re not so concerned with what you get in return anyway. You have an innate caring nature – and nothing can change that! |
How’s Your Karma?
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The last few days have not been happy ones for me.For what ever reason I’ve been riddled with a lot of pain to the point of interfering with my life and sleep.My right shoulder if not experiencing stabbing pain it feels as if its on fire with the slightest movements.Every time I lay down to sleep ,the pain keeps me awake. I finally after two day was able to sleep a couple of hours ,I was awoken bysuch a terrible pain shooting across my shoulder and back that it brought tears to my eyes.I haven’t tried to sleep again since.
I put a call into my doctor yesterday afternoon and haven’t heard back from her yet.Hopefully she’ll call me back this morning.Not sure what she can do for it……being part of what ails me and all but felt like I needed to do something.I hate feeling like I have no control of my own body or life. I can handle the limitations I sometimes have to put up with ,but the pain sometimes gets to me. Sometime I wish someone would just shoot me and put me out of my pain. To put a suffering animal to sleep is humane but humans are allowed to suffer……Tell me that makes sense!
Sterling just found out that she is going with as part of her bday.She is so psyched.She would rather go to Styx or Lifehouse but is still tickled pink to be going.I guess beggars can’t be choosers lol.Sky is a little upset that isn’t also going ,she is old enough to understand.Sky and Sebastian are set up with someone to watch them,already have checked the tires on the truck to make sure all is good for the 2 hour trip.Man ,I can’t believe how excited I really am.That’s unusual for me because I don’t get excited about ANYTHING as a rule.
I just found out that there is yet another free ticket so now my neighbor can go with also. How cool is this!Guess maybe it’s my time to enjoy life!ABOUT TIME!!!!!!
I saw a good friend today for a little while.Time is always a problem with him……he never seems to have enough of it.He has been going through some things for the last couple of months.Although he’s doing better, he has accepted facts about his life that are way off. I’m really not sure how to help other then what I’ve been doing for years.
His comment was,”I have come to accept that my life I’m suppose to be miserable,so miserable I will be.”.Then said,”I am so tired of life.”. Neither of those comment meant he was suicidal, but stressed beyond what he should be and sees his life as a hopeless trap that he is force to live.I have known he has felt that for a while and as time goes on it seems to be getting worst for him.The thing is if he finds or discovers something that brings him any happiness or any sense of freedom from this,he will do whatever it takes to make it disappear.He once said,”I don’t know how to handle happiness.”, and for him I believe he really feels this as fact.
He’s a great guy….funny,charming,talented,smart,interesting,caring,easy to talk to,and not bad looking if I say so myself ,but still he thinks he has nothing to offer that anyone would want not really.Yet at the same time,says he’s selfish and self centered.I don’t see this of him.I know from past experience if I said I needed to talk he would find the time to chat with me.He has done this with a number of people,so how can he believe he is those things.
His past several years really haven’t been pleasant ones for him .I will give him that.I try to bring him any sort of happiness that I can or that he will allow.I don’t understand is this……..how can he believe that all he deserves is misery?I mean sometimes I think that about myself and my own life,but I know in my soul that there is more out there.How do you bring hope to someone who feels hopeless?I try to encourage by saying and doing positive thoughts,things, and feelings,but he often rejects them as something unbelievable and untrue.I must admit sometimes I get sucked up into his frame of mind.Then all I can do is step back for a while and wait for things to calm back down again…….they always do eventually.
What I wish and always have wished for him was for him to find peace and contentment from life.It’s there if he would allow it to be there.I’m not sure how I can make things better for him other then to be there if he needs a friend with all the love and acceptance I can humanly muster.With him, that’s not hard to do because he is such a great person.Wish he saw what I saw!
I finally was able to meet up with my friend today for those tickets. They are resting very comfortably in my cubbyhole waiting for Monday night!WHEWWWW.I was very down hearted about not getting them yesterday.Come to find out….my friend was also having the day from hell (actually the week from hell!)and felt very very bad about standing me up. All is right with the world other then I’m very tired.I was that upset about them that I couldn’t sleep.Going to my first concert….I still can’t believe it!
The day started off OK, but as it went it on it got worst.I waited for two and a half hours for my friend with the Chicago tickets ,and they never did show up.I did get an email three hours later saying sorry i missed ya today,but it didn’t matter much. They had my cell. They could have called ..its called consideration!But they didn’t.
I had to exchange my faulty cell phone today after only having it two and a half weeks.They were suppose to switch my contacts and what not over to the new phone,but they didn’t know how.It took me two hours to replace all the names and numbers.
I finally got home to my mother waiting for me.She chewed me out for what I still don’t know.Fact is …..she did it on top of the rest of everything else.I normally just blow her off ,but couldn’t today.Needless to say ,an arguement started.I hate arguements of any kind!!!!!!
I’m going to bed soon.Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day!All I can do is hope.
I’ve gotten bored with my blog lately. It needed a change! So, most of the evening I’ve been web surfing for some new themes.I found a few I liked and downloaded them .What I didn’t know is that with WordPress you can not upload them.Three hours wasted to collect something I could not use.Oh well…..
While I was trying to find the answers to questions I had about uploading those themes,I happened across this new theme WP already had that was just added.It allows you to put your own header.COOL HUH? It allows you to browse your own computer for pictures and add them.So I have!This is one of my favorite pictures of the many wolf ones I own.
First I had a sunrise on the beach where I often fish with fishing pole in the foreground.It was pretty but just didn’t fit tonight.
So, I decided against it for now although it is my favorite place in all of my world. Fishing is a big part of my life and so is the beach,and those who know me know I’m telling the truth.I sleep ,breath,live to be there among the shore,listening to the waves hitting the shore,and having a fish on the line ready to reel in.
I’m happy with the new look of my blog although not that crazy about all the white background.I would have preferred a light blue backing against the howling of the wolves.Still,I think the change is an improvement and is more me.
I just found out that with my cell phone plan I can text even overseas for free.How cool is that?!I’ve had the cell now for a few weeks and still trying to figure things out.I’m really not very fond of cells,but I grew tired of people saying I didnt check in while being on my 3 or 4 day fishing trips.Either my friends are concern and care about me or just want to be posted how many fish I’m catching roflmao.Haven’t figure out which yet. 
.Anyways it was the second best news I’ve heard today.
The first best news I heard is I have tickets to see Chicago in my very first concert EVER THIS MONDAY NIGHT!!!!!!A friend is selling me an extra set a friend of his has(they can’t go) for only 100 dollars for a pair.I get them from him tomorrow afternoon.WOW my first concert and its one of the good groups! Now I have to find someone to go with me.STILL PINCHING MYSELF so I can believe this actually is and will happen.Still would have rathered it be dear ol’ Roger, but I’ll take it nonetheless!
More good news ………..just got off the phone with a friend of mine and they are interested in go with me……How cool of a day is this!!!!!!!!!!!!!
| Your Personality Is Like Ecstasy |
 You’re usually feeling the love for the world around you – you want to hug everyone.And while you’re usually content to sit back and view the world with wonder… Sometimes you’re world becomes very overwhelming and a little scary. |
What Drug Is Your Personality Like?
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Alot has happened in the week or so. This is the second time I am writing this post.WP is having av mental breakdown like the rest of us.Due to the fact that I had forgot most of what I had written I guess I’ll start over again.
My roommate had left the windows to the room he HAD open all summer. Needless to say,there was water damage along the whole wall of the windows and 3 feet into the room on the floor.I was not a happy camper when I discovered it! So the girls and I have been redoing the walls and floor. Not my first choice of activities or experences I would have choosen.
Sterling,my oldest daughter, turned 16 on September 5TH.She had planned a cookout then an outting with friends. Due to rain though, the cookout was canceled and the friends had other things that came up.We were planning on going fishing this weekend but instead had the cookout. It was a decent turnout,but with people comes drama. This was no different. Over all ,it was still pretty decent…everyone had fun.
A few friends did go fishing this weekend.They reported back to me both Reds and Rocks were caught and both were of decent size.GGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Me thinks I’m having fishing withdraws.lol Hopefully if the Gods are smiling on me ,perhaps we will be able to go this weekend. Keep your fingers crossed!
